Nine of Swords

“I don’t know when the storm in my dream will stop.”

Vision

Rubbing my fingers against the bedsheet to feel the rough texture of the cotton, I try to bring my thoughts back to the present. Yes, I have escaped that place, but why don’t the nightmares from the past let me go.

Message

This card describes a psychological state I’ve endured for a long time. Every night, lying in bed, a flood of fear and worry hits me before sleep. I involuntarily assume that everything will turn out badly and repeatedly simulate responses to those disasters that occur only in the theater of my mind. Every night, these uncontrollable thoughts drag me in, and it’s not until the morning when I open my eyes that I realize I’ve been washed ashore. The sun is still shining outside. Life is as calm as yesterday. Yet, come nightfall, I find myself staring at the ceiling again, unable to sleep, as if caught in turbulent waves and pushed by emotions and fears.

Keywords

demons from the past | anxiety | fear | uncontrollable chaotic thoughts | sleepless nights